Good with words or at a total loss?

I've always been pretty good with words...written words that is. I spent my high school career being a composer of words as an editor and staff writer for my high school newspaper. I spent a summer working for the Yale Daily News before heading off to college and (you guessed it) delving further into the field of journalism.


It was a short lived dream however. After spending a night actually working the shift that a journalist works and seeing in my imaginary crystal ball that print journalism was heading no where in this day and age, I quickly switched my career path to something that I believed would never go out of style.


But that never stopped me from writing. Hence my need to indulge my wedding life through a form of written expression.

And I got lucky too...I'm marrying a writer. Someone who loves the written word just as much as I do. So I don't think that I should have been too shocked when he said a few months after the engagement, "Hunny, I think that we should write our own vows."


I said I shouldn't have been shocked, I never said I wasn't. And like magic a giant, and I mean GIANT, wall flew up in front of me. Writer's block anyone?

"You're kidding right?" was all that I could get to come out of my mouth. I mean how could he expect me to stand up in front of all those people and read something that I wrote? And it's not just any "something"...this is a big "something". Something that is expressing my personal feelings. 

Then again, how could he not?

At that moment in time, I realized that it's not going to matter how I tell him I love him or how I tell him what he means to me. Heck we do that for each other every day. But what is going to matter is the fact that we are making this ceremony about us...we are making it our own.

So what am I worried about now? Well I'm still worried about writing them although it's not as scary as it once was. But I'm more nervous about the way my makeup will look after crying from hearing him speak or if I'll even be able to get the words out if I'm crying too much.

I've already told him that I get to go first, I've already told him that this is going to be one of my harder writing assignments, and I've already told him that our mothers are going to be wrecks.

But I've also already told him I love him, I've already told him that we're in this together, and I've already told him that he is my best friend in the entire world and I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him. So in all actuality I just have to stand up there and let everyone else here the things that I tell him all the time.

Hmm, this just might be the time that I'm not at a loss for any words.

Editor's Note: To all of my friends out there, remind me of this when I am staring into space trying to find the right words...please?